*note*: this is da blog for a week ago.accidentally deleted it.;p

Sumtimes i do wonder.....are all people created equally or are some meant to be smarter than the rest, braver than the rest or even luckier than the rest. My sisters would definitely think i have low self esteem.yup that too.but the thing is, im a plain jane.....u cant get more average than me. another 4 months since my last post.seems dat im one heck of a lazy bugger too!!!hahaha. Currently:doing form six at Sultan Abdul Samad. nice?mebbe. met new friends ?yeah surely. stressful?MOST DEFINITELY!!!!! i never did apply for matric or UPU or whateva u people call dat thing. i know i know, it's bad standard to study where they basically spoonfeed u all da way. but after juz three months of doin form six,my face is full of stress marks.u guess lar what those 'stress' marks means .dun get me wrong,it's nice and somehow quite a change from the years i was in 5 gamma. Even the process of entering samad at first was made difficult by the ever ludicrousness of beureaucracy.ahah...did i even spell dat rite? Life is well....interestin.Being the quite newkid in skool, i do hav this fun of being mistook for what i am not. if u knew me, u'd know what im talking about. My plan was.....to alter my life.to be perceived as someone not that scaredy-cat. wanted to join everything....do everything and ....be everything. i had so direly wished dat NOBODY would know me.....for i wanted to start anew.God gave me dat chance. although sum of the kids there knew me, they din really 'know' me.i even managed to make them call me by my first name instead of the usual mispronounced second name. haha....stupid thing was....even i wasnt used to being called by my first name dat people at first needed to call me for more than 2 times juz to get lil ol me's attention.ooooh.how grand!!!!!! My class: Science one. a friend was actually flabbergasted that im takin 5 subjects. and he spread da word round.though i dun think it's dat good to do so, at least he found sumtin to talk about me.not that i need any. First day b4 enterin , was kinda 'cornered' by this ex teacher of my sis. She actually had the heart to ask me if i could cope with the many subjects. made me feel like crying.but when i finally entered the class,found out that most people did go into the class with the same kinda results as mine. sheeeesh.......since dat day, i have this personal vendetta against the teacher. vowed to myself ...would get realllllllyyyy good results and make her eat the slip(photostated one lah of course.ori too priceless).damn nyer. masuk class, found out :chemistry syllabus-3 books the size of yellow pages,Physics- even with 3 years of studying , there's no way i can finish the syllabus(and mind u, lower and upper six combined,there r only approximately 1.5 years.that includes the oh-so-precious holidays)Dun even bother mentioning maths. so far, the teacher(although she's nice n everythin) has gone veeeery fast and im now one chapter behind in maths 1 and 2.sumone.....PLEASE HELP ME!!!!!! im hanging on to a veeeeery thin hair!!!!!!arrrrgh......the frustration is killin me........or has it already? On another issue, most every week we hav practical in the lab for every subject....means mon for bio, thurs for phys and fri for chem. surprisingly , im getting a hang of chem practicals ....in which when i was in form 5, was never given a chance to really do it. my chem teacher's technique of teaching must be really effective!lol. too bad....so sad.....that's not the case with physics. had a first blunder in the first ever practical . finished waaaaaay beyond the time allocated and had to give the report the next day. thank god that although the teacher is strict, he smiled and juz said.....no lar....i wont be minusing marks.PHEW! That's a relief! um...rite now ,dreading the day when i hav to dissect...yes! dissect a pretty rat(im not kiddin with u...the rat is white and furry...juz like a hamster)the thought of me 'handling' the chloroformed rat gives me the shivers.what if it suddenly 'revives ' and bit me?ooooohhhh...... should b studying now....but what da heck, in my dad's office, cant really study that much.juz waiting to go home.Hopefully ,tomorrow i wont be late to school again. Oh but that's a whole different adventure!hrmph!

*note*: another overdue blog...
fastin....yup....fastin already and it's not even the fasting month yet.it's ironic though how people manage to offer me food on the days that i fast!wow..really...as they said in the pramlee show. cobaan.hehehehe. really feeling the pressure of the finals. work harder!!!!!!haih. as though 'that' would work. been cracking up my head trying to come up with a theme to 'decorate' the boards in the library. but in the end decided to go with sumtin totally not original.....'Malaysia,truly Asia' lol. im a perfectionist.i know that. my family knows that. juz cant bear to see an ugly work,especially if it's mine.so, even with the exams drawing rather fatally near, i worked on the board, staying back in skool to get it done. from now on, i shall be known as 'the laminating machine destroyer'.ahahaha,if u din already guess it.....i made the plastic melt into the machine for the SECOND time in 2 WEEKS! and wasnt even brave enuff to own up to it.it's not that im a coward or netin.oh wait.....i am...lol. it's juz that for the disaster, i got unnecessary help from the 'good samaritans'. they turned the heat all the way to the maximum .what else?of courselar ....melt! felt like crying je. today juz found out that the skool prom 's going to be held on 15th december.my birthday!!!!!. but i cant go....hahaha.my dad would rather i go once i enter university/well....nothin much to actually argue about. it's not that i really wanna go. if i were to succumb to peer pressure and go, what would i wear? sarong boleh la.ahahah. now need to worry bout catching a big bug. dissection ...... on monday due.where am i gonna find a big bug? i get icked out at the mere sight of them !oh well..... This sux!