What the hell is wrong wid people . wait....rephrase that. wat is wrong with me? The debate which i soooo dreaded finally took place and only confirmed my suspicions....that i talk kinda funny. Well,it could have gone a lot smoother if it werent for this guy in my class who kept on making fun of me while i was making my speech. the whole affirmative was practically laughing when i made my points.i guess i am a bit tooooo sensitive.a 'friend' actually said i sounded forced/fake when i made my speech....but a point to ponder on is....did i always sound that way...or is it because my nerves got to me?sumbody,please....i need solace. The affirmative totally shot me down with their smirks. im juz not used to this sort of \evil\ strategies.*sigh*
Good thing is....they didnt win...due to the fact they didnt exactly define the motion accurately.I (not meaning to brag) could have easily,....single-handedly....beaten them ...but i' ve afterall been blessed with coldfeet perpetually.Their derogative statements towards how my points strayed from the main topic where in reality , even they did not meet da full requirements of the motion is truly despicable. Went to talk to them after the debate....the best speaker(i guess) told me she couldnt understand my words.they couldnot understand what i was trying to convey.They said my vocab was too over the top.But then....me being the usual sensitive type took it as ....i didnt enunciate that well.ok.that's it.unless it kills me, never will i volunteer to do this sort of thing.
Finally ...today ....Bio teacher entered class with ....yeah...our marks!!!!! Surprisingly, i managed to get 66% which is a B+.Honestly, the teacher's waaaay too lenient.i should have failed i tell u.AhahHAahHAH.....I never think i deserve any of my grades....always believing that there's always room for improvement and that i did worse than i should have. It's better to think u failed ...and then passed....rather then vice versa.U would know what i mean if u've faced the situation b4.
And my hands are shaking more than ever nowadays.it's my nerves again lar i think. i seriously need to build more self-confidence.Or i could end up with stress-related ailments.
speaking of stress-related illness....my classmate actually had to be sent to the hospital today...during bio.He wasnt looking all that well.Seems that it was nutin fatal,but he was advised by maths teacher to take it easy.HhahhHAH...she was telling us to enjoy life more.So okay...here's my class' tips for success(according to our teachers:maths, chem,physics, general paper respectively) : dun stress ur self,take it easy...socialize....fail nutin wat, lawak!,can eat in class(woohoo!!).So here the conclusion of this experimental class is....with the combined results from all 4 teachers,.........study a little....enjoy more, failure is nutin(really?)Joke! and when u study, make sure u eat in class.....!!!!!
Shocked?actually a class like this ,albeit wonderful...can never happen .that's fantasyland. neone care to join me?lol
Of late, getting quite short -tempered due to the 'beancurd'(no ordinary one...its human!!!)
I really cant tell if she's faking or really that blur! haiyah...who can rectify this dilemma of mine? Im soo afraid that she uses my name in her other lies as well.Besmirch my name( not that it's thaaat influential neway...but who cares)....with the lies that she spread about her mom knowing my mom and my dad knowing.....who again?all these lies....feel like ignoring it all....but i juz cant fathom how people can continue to spin their web of lies and not get tangled in the midst of it all.
Right now....im juz enjoying the times when she tries to lie(i knowlar of cos),and me trying to crack her ....to tell me the truth. One day, i will crack her i tell u.....unless i crack first lar...hahahaha
I pledged to do at least one exercise of maths a day ...read chem and phys everyday....and look at wat im doing rite this instant.No prizes for guessing....definitely none of the above!
If people were able to invent a self-disciplining pill or even a strong willpower serum....i'd pay them a million smackeroos(that is when i have the cash ...hehe....like never?) U could say, im enjoying life a lil way too much. U decide if it's an understatement or not. Here's the list of shows i watch every week(at most times.... daily) ..........................................................................
Smallville>Gilmore Girls> One tree Hill> Stairway to Heaven> Naruto>countless movies(at home and dad's office)>and.......the ones i juz havent had the time to watch though it's there.......
everwood>jack and bobby> charmed> shaman king > my jdoramas( aiseh....when can i ?)
aH...AND not to mention, i get a minimum of 10 HRS SLEEP EVERY DAY!!!! muahahahaha. see....me.... freak!
Will be goin to Kota Bharu for 4 days starting 2nd day raya.....so those who wish to visit me(doubt it) will hafta take a raincheck and delay it to at least 1.5 weeks later.....since i have the fraser's trip to consider as well.
Guess that's bout it. cant wait for sis to get me a comment box and counter.but most prolly.....will hafta wait a gazillion years b4 that happens!!!Haih!